Nath and I went snowboarding last weekend to Marmot in Jasper National Park, we figured it would be nice to get away from Edmonton for a couple of days and take in some mountain air. All was well until I threw a tantrum.....
Now I am absolutely rubbish at boarding and because I'm bad at it, I don't enjoy it but because I know Nath enjoys it so much, I agreed to go. So I squeezed my feet into my boots, which seriously felt like I was going to break my foot, why on earth are they so uncomfortable! As we walked towards the slope, I could feel the dread building up in me but put on a brave face and plastered on a smile continuing to be one of those irritating positive types. The first few runs were actually pretty good and I was v pleased that I didn't just heal edge down the mountain but actual pointed my board downwards, I was equally impressed with myself for getting off the lift without making a twat out of myself and piling in!
Feeling full of confidence I agreed to go to the top of the mountain, it has green runs all the way down so I was happy enough..........So on the lower slopes, I had been practising my turns and doing quite well at it but on top of the mountain, god knows why (seriously why??) I just wasn't as good and actually had to unclip at one point (most embarrassing thing to do on the mountain). I was practising my turns, which I was getting good at but as soon as I tried to link turns, I piled in and smashed my head on the ground (luckily I had a helmet on); the second time I piled in literally broke the very thin thread, that was holding onto my positivity and reasoning.
The second fall knocked the wind out of me and again I took a very bad hit to my head and I lost it!! Why can't I just be good at it, it looks so fuckin simple!! I was giving myself a proper hard time and then something awful happened.....I felt tears welling up, yes me, a fully grown woman was crying because I was shit at boarding, wtf! I was then berating myself for crying and telling myself to get a grip. Nath kept asking if I was ok and I just managed to say yes without my voice cracking as tears kept flowing behind my goggles!
We carried on down the mountain with small children passing me without a care in the world, switching from their toe to heal edges like little experts (show offs). Thankfully there was a bar, which pleased me, until I remembered I was doing a challenge, which meant I can only drink once a week (bore off January) so ordered a Coke. I tried to cheer up but the silly little girl in me wouldn't fuck off. I could feel myself getting upset, Nath looked at me all distraught and had no idea why my face was doing that weird thing when you're trying your best to hold it together; it was that bad, I had to excuse myself and go to the washroom to pull myself together.
It got worse, as soon as I got in the car I broke down and had a good old full on sobbing feeling sorry for myself cry, it was pathetic. I was like a child with Nath consoling me, that it's ok that I'm shit at snowboarding! We got back to our hotel, watched Border Security for an hour until I got a grip of my emotions then went out for a lovely dinner and to check out the planetarium (the planetarium in Jasper National Park is well worth a visit).
Will I go boarding again, probably, I have to justify all the kit I got when we started!
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